It was a breeze. Homeschooling, I mean. Every day a delight, never a problem, never a challenge. Immediate obedience, spotless home, heavenly moments on earth. Then I put the book down and got pregnant. 🙂
Having children changed my outsides (in more ways than one), but inside I have carried the breeze of homeschooling throughout both pregnancies and so far through one graduation.
The tricky part has always been that my outsides have never quite matched my insides, but I hear that’s pretty common:
For what I am doing, I do not understand. For what I will to do, that I do not practice; but what I hate, that I do. Romans 7:15
If we could just somehow squeeze our inside world onto our outside world like toothpaste from a tube, can you imagine the minty scent we would leave wherever we go? Well, on good days, at God moments, anyway.
I have loved homeschooling for one several reasons, the first being: I love my kids. But my love for them wasn’t enough to get through diapers to diplomas.
The secret to homeschooling success is really summed up in a hymn we sang at church yesterday. I thought about recording me singing it, my heart swarming with honeyed love for my Savior, but let’s just say, there are many gifts in one body, so here’s Enfield Hymn Sessions:
It is truly the deep, deep love of Jesus that gets me out of bed (much later in the summertime, admittedly) and keeps me. Keeps me what? Just that. Keeps me. And in keeping me, He gives the grace to keep on educating my children. Many years down, one to go.
O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death [which keeps telling me I should quit homeschooling because I’m not perfect]? I thank God–through Jesus Christ our Lord! Romans 7:24-25
Have you ever felt like quitting the homeschooling journey? What kept you going? Please share in the comments below to encourage others along the way.
Underneath you, all around you – and your children! – is the current of His love, leading onward, leading homeward, to His glorious rest above.
Let Him love you through this moment, this day … even when your outsides aren’t matching your insides and your toothpaste is all squished down at the bottom of the tube far from an easy squeeze to the brush. Especially then. Let Him love you through.